.... soul amnesia

...perhaps you remember what Jesus answered when he was asked this question, "Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?"...Jesus replied, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." ...it sounds simple, yet, often my heart is divided, my mind is distracted, and i  suffer from what i call soul amnesia. you know.  finding yourself back in the place where you thought you had  victory...and here you are again, learning the same lesson. again. and again.  fresh starts. first steps. new beginnings. resolutions. it's that time of year and it's what most people are talking about. normally, i would be jumping head first into the long list of resolutions and goals i have created for myself...but...this year....i am resisting the urge. i am waiting.....waiting for my soul to remember.  instead of self-striving...i will wait for my soul to remind me to let go of that try-hard life.  instead of mentally wiping the trials and struggles of last year out of my mind with the promise of a fresh start... i will wait for my soul to remember the peace that comes in the midst of a storm. instead of creating and manufacturing a happy life....i will wait for hope and joy to rise in their own time and place. i am reminded of a special gift i received this year....notecards that say, "I Pray, therefore I Hope." instead of resolutions i will pray....and i want to pray differently. not for outcomes..but for a soul that is awake... a heart that is quick to love and a mind eager to praise and to remember the Goodness of our God.